19 Feb 2010
by Worth Itin Girl Talk Tags: Girl Talk Thursday, procrastination
What do I win Olympic GOLD for? Procrastination…
Want proof? Let me tell you about my morning…
I woke up this morning and realized that my favorite jeans were still in the wash from last night. I had meant to move them to the dryer when the load was over, however, I got busy helping with homework. So, I threw them in the dryer this morning and they were dry exactly 30 seconds before we left the house. As I got the kids up and dressed, my son reminded me for the 3rd time that he needed a sack lunch for school today. I WAS going to do something about that, but I just kept thinking I’d do it later. So bright and early this morning I went down to the kitchen to pack a lunch, when I recognized that I have yet to go to the grocery store. He had a very random lunch. Also I realized that since we hadn’t gone to the grocery store, no breakfast food…so we drove through the donut place on the way to school. Oh! And on the way to school, my daughter reminded me that we had planned a sleepover for her and her friend tonight…I have YET to call the mother and set up the details. Tomorrow, she’s been invited to a birthday party, we have not RSVP’ed or bought a present. My son has tae kwon do graduation tonight; I have, yet, to inform my parents. I’ll do that as soon as I get a minute.
If that isn’t proof enough…I put off writing this Girl Talk Thursday post so long, that it is now Friday.
And winning the Gold, from the USofA….Angi
*and the crowd goes wild*
I’ll make sure to prepare to represent my country in future Olympics…I’ll start training…..soon.
18 Feb 2010
by Worth Itin Stress Tags: Stress, work
This week I was out of town, away from my family, to attend business meetings for work. Each meeting was more sad and depressing than the last. We’re making no money, we’re laying people off, we’re broken and don’t know how to fix it. So I sat in room full of 31 men and me for two days…eating, just to get by. I wanted to feel motivated to come back and turn the ship around. I wanted to be fired up that we were going to find a way through this. I wanted my leader to tell me, we are going to power through this and find ourselves better for it on the back side. That didn’t happen.
Next month, I have a similar type meeting with my employees. I will make a mental note now, that they will leave the meeting energized, fired up and ready to make something happen. Middle management sucks, but that doesn’t mean I can’t light my own fire and hope that we can fan the flames enough to turn morale around.
Because, I’m good enough.
I’m smart enough.
And doggone it, people like me.
Furiously fire starting,
Stewart Smalley (Angi)
12 Feb 2010
by Worth Itin Stress Tags: hysterectomy, sex, Stress
The week after Christmas I had a total hysterectomy, it was laparoscopic, so my recovery was quick. Except that my best friend died 12 days after my surgery. Not wanting to be alone with myself meant I was doing way too much, way too soon. I went back to work, part time, to distract myself. After my first days back, my boss asked the impossible, start thinking about putting together a plan to reduce staff, if needed. No specifics, just do it. With all these stressors, I needed to relieve stress. My two favorite ways to relieve stress are sex and working out. Since I was still on a restriction from sex, I ran. Which tore my internal stitches, caused bleeding and set back my recovery a ways. This is the long way for me to say that on Monday I was finally released from six weeks of pure hell (pelvic rest) and now I am once again relieving stress, the RIGHT way…SEX. Daily. Cuz, that’s how I roll.
How do you alleviate stress?
Bow-legged, but blithe,
Angi
11 Feb 2010
by Worth Itin Girl Talk Tags: Girl Talk Thursday, Holidays
I used to be one of those people that really blamed Hallmark for the fact that so many people feel particularly unloved one day a year. I hated Valentine’s Day. I never had dated anyone who was very good “romantic”. I always hoped for the flowers to be delivered or the big box of chocolate, but it never happended. Then I got married and it meant that Hallmark got our money and IF we had dinner plans it would be somewhere better than Taco Bell. My gifts to my loves were always hand made. In college, it was often the dreaded “mix tape”. As I got older, these gifts were about sharing special moments or memories in terms of photos or other special considerations. I removed the expectation for flowers and trinkets and being showered with love and turned into a holiday to celebrate love. The first Valentine’s Day after my divorced, I had decided that I hated the holiday again. I decided that I didn’t want to celebrate love, I didn’t know if I knew what love was any longer. I was angry and bitter. THAT day, I got 5 different bouquets of flowers AND a basket of chocolate. I got 3 sets of flowers from a guy, as old as my dad, who was pursuing me. I got one set of flowers from the man who would later become my boyfriend and yet another set of flowers from my BFF. I am not bragging, I was disgusted by the show of affection. I did not want flowers from someone who didn’t know me well enough to love me. I did not like the feeling of being inundated. It was not personal, it was not intimate…it was commercial and sad. But those from my friends, who just wanted me to know that they cared and they were thinking of me on that day as well as every day, THOSE made a difference. Since then, I don’t think much about Valentine’s Day. I do want to spend time with my boyfriend that night, but honestly, I want to spend time with him every night. I appreciate the fact that the holiday encourages us to slow down and acknowledge our appreciation of it. While I want this to happen every day, it’s nice to know there’s a day set aside simply to do that. Does that mean that I’m looking for flowers, chocolate or jewelry again? No. After my experience, I realize that those things are easy to get, if you’ve got the money to do it. And receiving those doesn’t make you feel loved, unless the feelings are already there. I want to celebrate the holiday. I want to take the time to remind the man in my life that I love him…everyday. To remind my best friend that my life would be less lovely without her. For the last several years, I have sent my best friend a bouquet of flowers for Valentine’s Day. Why? Because I love her. Because she loves me. Because that Valentine’s Day that changed what getting a bouquet of flowers and chocolates meant to me, was one of life’s best lessons for me. And she taught it to me. Hallmark makes a lot of money on Valentine’s Day, but true Valetine’s moments are the little moments that remind those closest to us that they are loved.
You are loved,
Angi
11 Feb 2010
by Worth Itin Getting Started Tags: Dreams, Getting Started
I have been blogging for several months over here. The issue is, my kids read that one. It’s about them…it’s FOR them. But I’m more than a Mom. I have things I want to say about my friends, my boyfriends, my life. And they don’t need to know all of that. This blog is for me. It’s so I can participate in things like Girl Talk Thursday, Nic’s Bottle of the Week, and other non-child friendly discussions. It’s to help me establish that there are reasons I’m “worth pursuing”. This is where I will talk about those things that are really ME. This is where I get to work on telling my story and maybe try some new things. The blogging/twitter community has taught me a LOT of things over the last several months. I want to explore who I am, who I can be and what I’m capable of.
I am hopeful that someday, there will be a smattering of people that will find this blog….Worth Pursuing.
-Cheers,
Angi
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